Don’t leave! You’re in the right place!
I’ve really missed blogging his past week. However, this past week has been incredibly busy and incredibly hard. Scratch that…this whole month has been hectic and challenging.
I’m trying to build a whole new life. I’m trying to learn how to be a single mom. I’m trying to maintain a civil relationship with Scott for Kolt’s sake. I’m trying to re-dream my future in order to one day support myself, Kolt, and Baby Girl. I’m trying to come to terms with all that has happened to me in the past few months.
My life has taken a turn I never expected. I don’t understand why. All to often I get stuck questioning why. You see, all my life I grew up thinking that happiness was a family with a happily married mom and dad with a couple beautiful children who see their parents as their role models. I thought I had my fairytale. I thought I had found true happiness. Perhaps I’m niave. Perhaps I was wrong. Or perhaps God has a whole different plan for my fairytale ending of pure happiness.
As we start a new year, I want to start fresh with a new blog and a new place for me to share. I have a long journey ahead of me; rediscovering who I am, searching to redefine who I am, and trying to mend the hole that has been torn into my heart. I hope you decide to follow me as I share my open and honest thoughts about life as a single mom learning to redefining everything I knew about happiness.
I am confident that God has incredible things in your future. It is very bright and full of love not only for your kids but also for you. Our ways are not always Gods ways….but we rest in Him know that His ways are exceedingly better than ours. We love you so much!
Marah:
Will try to pray for you every day.
Love and prayrs
Nan
Marah this is beautiful and yes i will be glad to follow your new and happy and exciting life. It will be awesome to hear of all of the new relationships you will be entering and all the new miracles that will come your way and all your new adventures you will be starting. And i want you to no you are very loved and cared about and all the same and thank you for sharing your life’s missions it will help someone else one day u may not no it but you will be a great feeling that u have touched someone elses heart while thru their own lives obsticles :) <3 Kell
I think God is in control. I do believe he allows evil things to happen in order to bring about things that he loves. One thing I do know, God loves you and your devotion to Him through this difficult time. He will not let your falter, and He will bring you the desires of your heart.
I like the look of your blog. I believe that God is in control, and I’ll be thinking of you and praying for you, especially when I read your blog.